thanks and giggles

In an introductory statement, giggles have nothing to do with this blog entry. I just felt like writing it.
disregard!

Now - I would like to say... THANK YOU to everyone who is lovely enough to read my blog, and pray for me.
I don't deserve you! (you know this...)

but thank you. In all seriousness.
I think I am going to always have days and moments, of questioning what I am doing with my life - and then sometimes it is a matter of minutes before God sends me a confirmation, or encouragement which gives me the assurance that HALLELUJAH I am in the right place... just making the best of the moments I am given. (cheeeeeez... but it's OKAY!)

So thanks team!
I tip my hat to all of us waging the war of life...
Thank goodness it's much bigger than me... cuz then I would really be in trouble!
heh heh...

well... we'll see if I blog AGAIN in November! Oh my GOSH! heh heh...

cheers,

mariajane.

space

I feel like I can't get quite enough of it lately. I know this feels ironic, and completely unlike me, as most of you know, I am unusually social, and seek out social engagements, and environments... and yet - why is it, that I am longing for more space, by myself, with a book, with my journal.

where are my priorities? what are they?

I feel extremely inconsistent, bad at what I do, that I have a lack of any clear goals or achievements that I am dreaming about for myself... I am floating along, very unclear of what I should be focusing my time and energy on.

now - we always bear in mind, that the day, time of day, and all those other associative factors - have a large role to play in the state of my heart and mind right now.
Will I feel focused, and passionate about life and my goals tomorrow?! Maybe...
But wait, what are my goals?!?!?!?!

I hate that the people I am technically supposed to be honest with I have such a hard time being honest with. Because it makes me question things I shouldn't question... but I just can't tell the truth! ARGH!!!

how important is it to know my goals... all the time? Everyday? Has Christ called me to be focused on only one thing? One more than one!? On too many things!?!?!?!?!?
How am I to love my husband, and my family, and my friends, be passionate about my job, be passionate about creating music, be passionate about meeting and building relationships with people who don't know Christ - and more - how am I to do all that? With the time I have been given!??!? I don't know.

I am frustrated with work relationships today - and will choose to ask the Grace of Christ into those situations - otherwise I am hopeless.
Is it okay that I am a cheezy Jesus nerd? What the HECK!?!?!?!?!?

are there questions today? Anyone? Feel the questions?
me too.

cheers!

mariajane.

bah. humbug.

I had an entire blog entry... and then my internet explorer SHUT DOWN!!!!
And this blog entry was LONG! And funny! (Because we all know how ridiculously funny I truly am!)

So this is all I will write today. For fear of "wasting time" when I should be working, and due to sincere frustration, which would only increase, were I to attempt to rewrite everything I had already written...

everyone now: "Grrrr......"

right, I just remembered one extremely important piece of information, that I need to share with you before I log of...
it's Christmas at Starbucks!!! true story!
You know why I know? Because they have EGGNOG!!!!

Oh Eggnog... how do I love thee? Let me count the ways...

So if you guys love eggnog, go down and get one steamed... or get an eggnog latte... YUM! I bought some at the grocery store, cuz I LOVE it in my coffee, in place of cream. YUM! So in remembrance of that fact, as I sit here and drink my coffee and eggnog... I will decide that my internet explorer shutting down on me isn't that bad, and that due to the delightful presence of Eggnog, and some fantastic muffins I made yesterday... life is significantly better than I let on a few moments ago.

Cheers! (my cup is in the air... ) And have a wonderful day... or at least MAKE it wonderful!

grace.

mariajane.